When I was younger, I was petrified for skeletons. My family went put-put golfing at a pirate-themed course, and because there was a skeleton on the back wall, I didn't want to golf. At night, I was always imagining skeletons at the foot of my bed. Once, I got so scared of these skeletons that I slept in a crouching position on top of my pillow, which put me literally the farthest distance from the skeletons as possible. I told you I was petrified!
Nowadays, my fear of skeletons has calmed down to just a general dislike. I'm more afraid of accidentally burning my house down via cooking or leaving on the hair straightener. Also, I'm not terribly fond of crosswalks, and I'm pretty sure I'm justified in this concern.
Like Bailey, I struggle with being afraid of what others think of me. Some days aren't bad, but other days my every conversation is under the scrutiny of my insecurities and I want to hide in a cave and not let anyone know me.
I'm also afraid of missing God's will for my life. Some of this is a good, holy, fear-of-the-Lord kind of fear, and I'm glad to have that. But some of this is a selfish, me-based fear that doesn't believe God is good enough or that I'm good enough for Him or that He can use me whenever He wants.
How do I overcome these fears? The Word of God, the Blood papers, dialogue with my parents and close friends, and journaling and praying all help me get focused on the Truth. The truth is that I have nothing to fear, that God loves me so I don't have to worry what others think of me, that He is using me now in my flawed state, and that nothing I do can screw up God's plans.
Thank you, Bailey, for such a great prompt! If you would like to join the link-up, hop on over to Anchored in Love and share your story, what fires you up, and what scares you.
"nothing I do can screw up God's plans" - now that's something to think about! I always wonder about his will and if I'm doing things right. Definitely agree with the talking with people part. God's got our backs! :-)
ReplyDeleteIsn't it a wonderful and scary thought!? I don't know what theological argument this falls into, but I do know that God is so much bigger than anything I can comprehend, and He is absolutely sovereign, no matter my stupidity. :)
DeleteSo glad you've joined us in the challenge, friend! Naming your fear is a powerful way to start battling it, and isn't it nice to know that Jesus is already victorious? :)
ReplyDeleteThank you for hosting this challenge!
DeleteJesus really beats living in fear for sure. I'm so grateful for His victories! :)