Saturday, April 28, 2012


My final research paper is about abortion and specifically how and why the federal government should cease funding Planned Parenthood. I’m on that organization’s website currently, and I am literally stunned at their vocabulary. No wonder so many women are deceived. No wonder people who are “on the fence” about abortion waver and hesitate to talk negatively about this company. Jeepers. Jesus, help us.

But as sad and frustrating as their deceit is, it’s not what’s on my mind right now. What is almost more saddening and frustrating is the list of “anti-abortion extremists” who take violent action against abortion doctors, clinics, employees, etc.

I think it is safe to say that a lot of pro-life people are also Jesus followers. That makes me sad, not because I don’t want people to follow Jesus, but because these “extremists” are giving Jesus a bad reputation. I’m sure they think they are working for Jesus and that they are accomplishing His will, but I don’t think that’s how Jesus operated; at least, I have never read anything like that in Scripture.

Not only are these people misrepresenting Christ, but they are discrediting other pro-life individuals who are trying to follow Christ in the manner that Christ Himself modeled. It is hard for non-violent pro-lifers to speak to a pro-abortioner when all they see are the violent, unbiblical even, acts committed by “extremists.”
What are your thoughts?

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Tuesday’s Thrills

I was going for an alliteration, but the word I was trying to say was “exciting” and “thrilling” was the only word I could think of that is synonymous with exciting, and so even though the T in Tuesday is a different sound from the TH in thrilling, today’s title is Tuesday’s Thrills.
It’s that point in the semester when:
  • I’m sorry, but I don’t care.
  • my brain hurts.
  • sleep is both a good thing and a bad thing. 
  • I’m sorry, but I don’t care.
  • the weekends are sooooo nice and lazy… and then Sunday night comes back to bite.
  • my project is so close to being done, but each step requires an hour of wait-time in between, so it’s taking forever
  • the countdown until my family gets here is ALMOST in single digits!!!
  • I've been on my last research paper for like a month, and have like 2 paragraphs
  • I’m sorry, but I don’t care.
  • I laugh hysterically instead of crying.

Ok, I really do care. I’m just tired and rambling and this is what I’ve been saying to my roomie about doing my hair this week. Ha. Sad but true.

Please, someone tell me that I’m not the only person out there feeling the stress of the last week of school. I know some of my readers are on the {beloved and missed!} quarter system, but pretend you feel my pain, please!

Oh yeah, thrills. So I planned to post about things I’m excited about, since this is the last Tuesday I’ll be in classes {at least in the foreseeable future}. So here’s a more positive list of things I’m thrilled about.
  • in one week, I’ll be done with this ridiculous research paper
  • tomorrow, I’ll be done with the debate!
  • in TEN days, my family will be here!!!!!!!!!
  • in TWELVE days, I’ll be walking down the graduation aisle!!!!!
  • tomorrow, the classes I TA for are having a end-of-the-year celebration and there will be cupcakes :)
  • last Friday {which was my last Friday of classes}, I celebrated by going to the bookstore and picking up my cap and gown! Yay! It’s hanging in my window, all ready to go! Now I just have to decide if I’m going to decorate my cap or not… is it sentimental or tacky? In ten years, will I regret decorating it, or wish that I had decorated it? Thoughts?
  • my dorm is having a Movie and Margarita night tomorrow night… virgin margaritas, as per College policy, but still! We got the mix and Sprite… woot!
  • I’m really excited about finding a good fiction book to read. Any advice? I realized that probably part of my grouchiness is stemming from my lack of pleasure-reading… I’ll be taking recommendations in the comment section :)
  • my friend hosted a Mary Kay party, and I learned that one should apply foundation to one’s eyelids in order to help eye makeup stay better. Life. Changed. 
  • yesterday, the cafe had a deal on smoothies, and so my friend and I both got one. It was yummy. 
  • my allergies have gotten sooooo much better! Thanks everyone for your prayers!
  • my special project will most likely be done tomorrow or Thursday! I’m so excited to tell and show you all about it!

Well, I feel better. School is not too much to handle, and the good definitely outweighs the hard. In fact, the hard is good. It’s challenging and growth-producing, and it makes me way way grateful for summer!
Joyfully, gratefully,

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Oh No! I missed a week!!! :(

 Can I make it up to you by posting twice this week??? Pretty please??

Ok, thanks! :)

Last week was the last full week of classes, and it was a bit crazy. This week, although only 4 days long, promises to be even more crazy, intense, stressful, and awesome. I mean, how many last weeks of undergraduate classes do you have? {Technically a lot, but this is the for-real last one!} So things are going at break-neck speed, and I love it and I hate it and I’m ready for it to be done but I’m also sad that it’s going to be over.

If you think of me, please pray for me this week. I have a HUGE test on Tuesday, a debate on Wednesday, a project to turn on on Thursday, and then an 8 page paper due the Tuesday of next week. Oh, and my secret-awesome-rockin’ project has to be done by Thursday also, because apparently we won’t be able to use the equipment during Finals Week. I don’t understand why, but we can’t, so I’ll be running to the farthest building on campus every hour or so to finish this project. Yeah. Great exercise in time management. Woot.

Well, I’m off to bed to get a head start on this awesomely crazy week. Wish me luck! :)

Thursday, April 12, 2012

2.5, and other news

If I was writing this yesterday, it would be exactly 2.5 weeks left of classes. Holy canoli batman. Shut up shut up shut up. Really???

Really. It’s getting so close!

And the amazing thing is, all those big scary projects I had to do are getting done. And they’re not so big or scary anymore. My capstone project will be done tomorrow and the presentation is on Tuesday. The political communication paper is doable, and an A in that class is achievable!

So the other evening, I did something a) that I had never done before and b) never planned on doing. gulp.
Any guesses?

NO! Not that! {I don’t have anything in mind, but I bet you got concerned}

Actually, I looked at grad schools. Gasp. I know, I did. It’s awful or wonderful, depending on who you are.
Now, for the record, I’m not looking at going to graduate school just for the sake of continuing my education. For my personal calling, I don’t think that’s the direction the Lord is calling me in. But when I was looking at the organization I would LOVE to work for, the sidebar caught my attention. One of the current employees got her Master’s degree in grassroots marketing. How cool is that!?!?!? So I think that if I ever were to go back to school, if God called me to that because it will be necessary for the future, that’s what I would want to study, if that’s the direction God calls me. Anywho. I was just looking at a couple schools to see if they had any programs like that. I didn’t find any in the geographic area of this organization, and I didn’t find any in the geographic area of where I’m at now (granted, I only looked at like 3 schools total, so don’t go setting this in stone or anything). But yeah. There’s a little update on what’s up.

Well, I said earlier that my capstone project would be done tomorrow. Guess what that means I should do today. Yup. Peace out.

Friday, April 6, 2012

Heavy Thoughts

 The past three weeks, 39 women have been walking from Houston to Dallas. Their walk was a symbolic walk for Life: 39 women, one for each of the years since Roe vs. Wade was passed; Houston is home of the largest Planned Parenthood center in the nation, Dallas is the location where Roe vs. Wade was decided. To learn more about this walk, go to their website.

Yesterday and today was the culmination of their walk with a conference called The Esther Call. You can read about it here.

Bound4Life asked for people to fast and pray yesterday and today, even if you couldn't be in Dallas. I was planning on praying and fasting with these wonderful ladies, but I failed. I completely forgot until a friend said that she was surprised I wasn't participating.

’m frustrated with myself for not making this more of a priority, and I’m ashamed that I want to go and work with this organization, yet I can’t even remember to write “fast and pray with Esthers” on my calendar. How hard would that be, and yet I missed it?! I’m disappointed in myself.

This causes me to question my passion, my dedication, my devotion even, to this cause. How self-absorbed am I, that I don’t even write something on my calendar when literally lives are at stake.
Sometimes I’m fed up with myself.

sigh again.

thank God for His mercy and love. I’m totally blown away, especially on days like today, by His forgiveness and passion for me. There is absolutely no reason for Him to love me, to die for me, or to use me, but He does all of these things and more. Jesus is amazing.

I leave you with the lyrics of a song:
Jesus paid it all. All to Him I owe. Sin had left a crimson stain; He washed it white as snow.
O, praise the One Who paid my debt, Who raised this life up from the grave!

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

a title wouldn’t really be appropriate, because that implies that this post is only going to have one topic, and sorry honey, it ain’t happenin’ today

 Did you guys like meeting Dahlia!?!?!?! I sure did… of course, we met like 4 years ago…via email/her sister, and then we met in person like 2 months later, and yeah maybe it was slightly awkward, but everything that happens during an orientation is awkward, right? Anywho. Hope you all liked my dear friend, and if your heart desires to do something similar, leave a comment and we’ll make something happen!

Here in the lovely southern part of the country, we are experiencing nice weather. We actually were blessed with this gift right after Spring Break, and the sunshine is quite nice. The only down side: allergies. Any one else out there suffering? I feel ya. This is actually my first time ever having allergies, and it’s killing me, and Mom, I now totally understand why you don’t like flowers in the house. Jeepers creepers. Prayers {and rain!} appreciated.

This past month, I think I've been pretty crafty. For example, a friend and I got together and tore up, twisted, squished, and then rolled and glued some old magazines! We made beads, which ended up being re-purposed into artwork for my wall.

Another example: Sunday night, my dorm had a program called “T-shirt Up-cycle” where basically we cut up and made other things out of t-shirts, or we simply cut up and dressed up a t-shirt in such a way that it doesn't feel like a t-shirt anymore. I made a headband. Pretty awesome.

The point here is that I would love to take some pictures and show you all my craftiness {because I know there are some of you back home who are reading this in disbelief} but alas, my camera broke! *tears stream down face, completely from sadness and not from allergies at all* And no, I’m not just saying that. It’s legit. And sad. But anyway. You’ll just have to come visit me and see, or ask me to text you a picture. That’s right. You have to want it.

moving on.

Soooooo graduation is like in a month…. AUGH!!!!!!!!!! What is standing between me and that diploma {are they even called diplomas in college??} ? Well, let me tell you:
  • that special project in Crafts class---omg the things we did in class yesterday- you can actually tell what it is! Well, you can’t, cuz you can’t see it and you don’t know what it is, but you get the idea.
  • one final research paper. The research is mostly done; the outline is done; that thing is going down on Friday! 
  • one interview with “an older adult” for my PE class. This will hopefully be easy and fun!
  • management project. this one is going to be a lot of work, but it’s group work, and it’s actually applicable to work in the real world, so that’s cool. Plus we’ll be done with it in like 3 weeks… oh wait, that’s when classes are over. Shoot. 
  • one final test, for the capstone course. I’m done with that thing the day before my family gets here- can you say reward!?!?!? Super excited about that
  • two quizzes and a debate for my political communication class! one quiz is tomorrow, and the other is…some time. haha. the research paper is my final for this class, so yeah. it should be fun. I just have to do it. riiiiight.

There you have it. Bek’s list. git r dun!

A couple weeks ago, I got an email about joining an honor’s society. The initiation banquet is tonight, so that’s exciting. I don’t know anyone who’s going {yet}, but I've been told to sit with one of my instructors, so that’s my plan. This instructor is also my adviser, and this semester is the first time she hasn't taught one of my classes, so it will be good to catch up with her and visit for a bit.

Alright. I’m getting the roomie addicted to BBC’s Sherlock, so we’re off to watch another episode :) Samara, this is what exponential growth looks like, haha! In case you didn't know, my bestie is the one who introduced me to Sherlock, and we hit it off quite well. Or, as Sherlock himself puts it {when describing the great villain Moriarty}, “I pointed a gun at him, he tried to blow me up. I thought we had something special.”
on that note, I bid you adieu