Musings

Do you ever have those moments where you just have to write? Do some things just move you to inspiration, to strive for something more than just the obvious? Sometimes it takes just a little jolt and I'll realize that I need to do a certain thing a different way, or begin again those things I had set aside. Tonight I watched Bright Star, and when I came upstairs and was studying for finals, I could feel my brain move into poetic mode. And then the rain came, a glorious, heavy, soaking, enchanting and entrancing rain came. It thundered upon my roof, and I turned off my worship music to let Him conduct. Oh, it was beautiful. I wish I had appreciated it longer.

Today, I realized that Jesus is totally and completely head over heels in love with me. And I realized again that I want to fall head over heels in love with Him. Nothing, no one else satisfies, or even comes close. HE is the only thing that comes remotely close to closing the void in my soul. His arms wrap around me and pull me so close I can't breathe...and then we breathe together, and it is like my first breath. He whispers my name, and it's like no one else has ever said my name before. He declares His passionate love for me, and I'm a goner.

It's like a scene from some movie where the character has a flashback, and she's standing still and everything else moves in fast-motion behind her and away from her, until all we can see is the look of astonishment on her face. That's how I feel when He tells me He loves me. Everything else in my mind and life fades instantly, and I am alone with Him. It happens every time, no matter where I am. I could be on the bus, or in class, or in the middle of a conversation, and He says, "I adore you, Beloved," and it's like the pause button was pressed and I have to catch my breath and blink a few times to return to this present reality. I think I'm falling in love...

Stories...

Hello, beloved readers! I hope you realize that you are beloved, really and truly. He loves you! So I woke up the other morning and thought, it all comes down to stories. Everything in our lives comes down to a story.

Think about it. In school, why do you study English? To read stories. Even nonfiction books have stories in them. Why do you study math? Story problems!!?!?!? Hello! And in science, what makes it interesting [for me, at least]? The stories about how things were discovered or created. What is history? PURE story! What do we love to tell our best friend? A story of what happened the other day, last week, six years ago! How do you practice another language? Tell stories! How did Jesus teach his followers? Stories!

I read somewhere that God is all about stories. He is the ultimate Author, and He loves to write the stories of our lives. I think this is my favorite part of Him: His storytelling nature. It's probably because He made me like that, but I think He made me like that because it's a part of His nature! His whole love letter to us is a story, a gorgeous collaboration of thousands of stories that take place over hundreds of years, all revealing His majesty and His passionate love for us. I can't get enough of His stories!